All Mommee's

I have no idea where to begin with this, all I know is that the pain I feel is never ending and it hurts like hell. Not a person for words that flow from my mouth, I get out my frustrations through words that flow on paper or computer, even if I am the only person in the world to ever post on this I will continue on. Always the person to give great advice, I must admit that I never follow my own. But how do you advise yourself on how to feel, when the feeling is pain and so great that a thousand swords would feel like a mere prick from a needle's point! Hopefully this blog or whatever will find whoever it needs too and give them the power they need to purge all their painful thoughts and feelings and in the midst of it all help me too. I spelled mommee the way I did because that was the first word out of Adonys' mouth when he woke up and the last word he said before bed at night, it is spelled the way he said it with an emphasize on the two mm's and ee's. Please, talk to me mother's, father's, grandparents, friends, whoever, I think we could use and need each others words and company, so how do you feel out there?